I’m Ugly-Crying Right Now.

Just watched a video that made me start to question my religion again.

But I really don’t want to; that’s the problem.

It’s just that…

How can God just let a child be gay and then grow up in a famiy who will tell them that he’s going to burn in hell because of the rules He set up?

Or how could He let this boy be lulled into a false sense of acceptance by some other guy, only to have the guy turn on him and then he’s bullied by the guy he thought he loved, or at least really liked. I mean let’s say he’s only 14.

But that’s the thing: how can He let someone or a group of people bully him, by quoting His Scipture, into ending his life at 14?

Fourteen

HIs life hasn’t even freakin begun yet; he’s not even done with puberty, for goodness sake.

Or how can children in Africa go out and beg and scavenge for something edible until their stomach eats itself or parents have to decide between which twin to send to college, or kids being put down by their own teachers, it just… confuses me, I guess

But now that I know all of these things that are actuallly happening, can I continue being a Christian who believes that there’s a God out there who loves all the little children and is fair and just?

But I don’t feel as if I can go out and say that there is no God or that God is unfair, because He’s been good to me, right? I’m a healthy high-school student with good grades, no addictions, no children, and a happy, normal family. What right do I have to complain?

I’m just scared that if I say that I’m Agnostic or Atheist or Buddhist or Jewish or whatever, I might die and realize I made the wrong choice. And then I’ll burn eternally in a Lake of Fire and live in constant torture and damnation, which really scares me

I don’t know: I’ve tried praying and asking for a sign that He’s real, that He’s out there somewhere, but He must be ignoring me or something because I haven’t gotten any answer back yet…

I feel as if I need something to believe in; that there has to be some higher power, something bigger than us, right? But there’s too many questions on my mind that I’m scared no one will have the answer to

I guess in short all I’m saying is

Everything is supposed to happen for a reason, but I really wish I knew what it was.

ruraljackdaw:

Hugging shorter people and resting your head on theirs

Hugging taller people and having your head against their chest

Hugging people your height and pressing your face against their shoulder

Hugging people and getting picked up by them

HUGGING

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makaracinnamon:

bardsplay:

me sneakin up on da pussy

i JsUT FUCKING SPIT EVERYWHERE

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unsuccessfulmetalbenders:

egberts:

BATHTUBS ARE JUST REVERSE BOATS

get away from me

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